want it so i got it did it so it’s done
another thing i ruined i used to do for fun
another piece of plastic i
could just throw away another conversation
with nothing good to say
i thought it so i said it took it cuz i can
another day pretending i’m older than i am another perfect moment that doesn’t feel like mine
another thing i forced to be a sign
well sometimes i feel like i don’t wanna be where i am getting drunk at a club with my fair weather friends push away all the people who know me the best
but it’s me who’s been making the bed i’m so tired of being the girl that i am
every good thing has turned into something i dread and i’m playing the victim so well in my head
but it’s me who’s been making the bed me who’s been making the bed
pull the sheets over my head making the bed
and every night i wake up from this one recurring dream
where i’m driving through the city and the breaks go out on me
and i can’t stop at the red light i can’t swerve off the road
i read somewhere it’s cuz my life feels so out of control
and i tell someone i love them just as a distraction
and they tell me that they love me like i’m some tourist attraction they’re changing my machinery and i just let it happen
i got the things i wanted it’s just not what i imagined
well sometimes i feel like i don’t wanna be where i am getting drunk at a club with my fair weather friends push away all the people who know me the best
but it’s me who’s been making the bed i’m so tired of being the girl that i am
every good thing has turned into something i dread and i’m playing the victim so well in my head
but it’s me who’s been making the bed me who’s been making the bed
pull the sheets over my head making the bed
sometimes i feel like i don’t wanna be where i am counting all of the beautiful things i regret
but it’s me who’s been making the bed me who’s been making the bed
pull the sheets over my head
making the bed
