NF HOPE Lyrics
Growing pain’s a necessary evil
Difficult to go through, yes, but beneficial
Some would say having a mental breakdown is a negative thing which on one hand I agree with
On the other hand, it was the push I needed to get help and start the healing process, see
If I’d have never hit rock bottom
Would I be the person that I am today?
I don’t believe so
I’m a prime example of what happens when you choose to not accept defeat and face your demons
Took me thirty years to realize that if you wanna get the opportunity to be the greatest version of yourself
Sometimes you got to be someone you’re not to hear the voice of reason
Having kids will make you really take a step back and look in the mirror
At least for me that’s what it did, I
Wake up every day and pick my son up
Hold him in my arms
And let him know he’s loved (Loved)
Standing by the window questioning if dad is ever going to show up (Up)
Isn’t something he’s gon’ have to worry ’bout
Don’t get it twisted, that wasn’t a shot
Mama I forgive you
I just don’t want him to grow up thinkin’ that he’ll never be enough
Thirty years of running, thirty years of searching
Thirty years of hurting, thirty years of pain
Thirty years of fearful, thirty years of anger
Thirty years of empty, thirty years of shame
Thirty years of broken, thirty years of anguish
Thirty years of hopeless, thirty years of (hey)
Thirty years of never, thirty years of maybe
Thirty years of later, thirty years of fake
Thirty years of hollow, thirty years of sorrow
Thirty years of darkness, thirty years of (Nate)
Thirty years of baggage, thirty years of sadness
Thirty years of stagnant, thirty years of chains
Thirty years of anxious, thirty years of suffering
Thirty years of torment, thirty years of (wait)
Thirty years of bitter, thirty years of lonely
Thirty years of pushing everyone away
You’ll never evolve, I know I can change
We are not enough, we are not the same
You don’t have the heart, you don’t have the strength
You don’t have the will, you don’t have the faith
You’ll never be loved, you’ll never be safe
Might as well give up, not running away
You don’t have the guts, you’re the one afraid
I’m the one in charge
I’m taking the— (No)
I’m taking the
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