Wonder, oh, why this ever had to be?
So many losing hope in those dreams that they-
I wrote that first verse in Denver
Back in September
It’s January now
And I’m feeling like myself again
I got Angel back in here I need his help again
I’m Taking time away but wondering what a healthy helping is
Fuck it they gon check for me
I tell myself
And tell my friends
Avoiding any talks about the elephant
Chalking up the hate to jealousy and just embellishments
But deep down I find myself wondering if the people that write about me are right about me
And I wonder if my exes are oversharing cause they know a lot about me
I’m a long way from Shelby County, I been thru some local tension, heard talks of a healthy
Bounty
Sober and focused I cannot walk down no deli alleys
I still got the fellas round me, I love em and tell em proudly
My mama needs help adjusting, my father needs help accounting
I’m lookin out heavens window I know that there’s hell around me
Wonder, oh, why this ever had to be?
So many losing hope in those dreams that the