One of my earliest memories was blood shed (Ugh)
You see on the ends all the crazy things you see through a window
You grew up on a household where everybody hates the back bread
You fight for the last slice like we Kimbo
Winter time walks to primary school, we took the slip road
Had to climb five flights of stairs becah the lift broke
Hard tryna fix a broken home, this home been broke
I got shipped to Ghana, missed the primary school disco
To think that was eighteen years ago makes me feel old (Suh-suh-suh-suh)
Yo, you could avoid an outcome so much it turns inevitable
Pops made mistakes, I still put him on a pedestal
And I can only blame myself for gettin’ involved
I was sittin’ on a rock like Fred Flintstone
Prayin’ to the Lord that a fien’ll ring the flip phone
[Sampha:]
The side effect of memories (The side effect)
It’s weighing on me mentally (It’s weighing)
That can be a friend to me, or an enemy
The side effect of memories (The side effect)
It’s weighing on me mentally (It’s weighing)
That can be a friend to me, or an enemy
[Headie One:]
And now the consequence is PTSD, there’s jealousy and envy
I’m sat alone, I’m thinkin’ everybody’s out to get me (Argh)
I try and change, but my destiny it just won’t let me
I seen everyone progress, except me
I been in prison, in my memory I’m free but not free (One)
Chest pains, I think I need Ibuprofen (One)
Got cold feet with insomnia, I had no sleep (Argh)
You seen your bro get stabbed and hope he don’t sleep
I wrapped my vest around his belly, say he won’t bleed (Argh)
He’s havin’ nightmares now, he started sippin’ codeine (Turn)
Mother had co-de’s, but never had a codie
Should’ve been Maldives, and poppin’ off in Sony (Turn, turn)
And I can only blame myself for gettin’ involved (Turn, turn)
I was sittin’ on a rock like Fred Flintstone
Prayin’ to the Lord that a fien’ll ring the flip phone
[Sampha:]
The side effect of memories (The side effect)
It’s weighing on me mentally (It’s weighing)
That can be a friend to me, or an enemy
The side effect of memories (The side effect)
It’s weighing on me mentally (It’s weighing)
That can be a friend to me, or an enemy
